It has been 5 days since we split and I haven spoken to her since.I feel really empty and wonder,did our 4 months worth of relationship just come to naught.Am i that insignificant in her life?Why do I miss her so bad while she doesnt even bother about me.She seems to be enjoying life with her gf now.Did I make a big mistake to start this whole thing in the first place?I think I urgently need help.Everyday my mind is consume with thoughts of her,I wanna forget this whole painful experience but I just cant.Even though I know how much it hurts,I will still think and look at pictures pertaining to her and jolt my memory of her all over and over again!!!!!
Why do I enjoy reopening my own wounds when it so badly hurts! ='( Its a fact how some people can be so heartless and just stab your heart the way they do without unthinkable consequences.I just wish she would remember me,but I never wanna see the 2 of them together cuz it hurts so much just witnessing that.I try to constantly distract myself so that thoughts of her wont engulf me so much that I fall into depression.HAIS!!! FML!!! I dunno what's the meaning of living
anyway.To bear pain and the hurt someone ever caused you?
Gonna see a chinese doctor tmr!! Always so troublesome cause of my giddyspells and everything.SIAN..!>.<
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